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Did I mentioned before that my brother recently just moved back from his hostel to our house?

Did I mentioned that he has been whipping up fabulous dishes, much to our delight?

Did I mentioned that our family has been greatly blessed by his return?

Eversince my brother came back, he cooked breakfast for us, dinner, and also brownies, cookies.

My gosh, it is not only delicious, but also filled with brotherly love!

Breakfast

Chocolate Milk, with strawberry, mango pudding.
Main Course: Egg Bread, with Cheese, and roti prata, and Ham.

All Home cooked by my kor kor.

(Of course, the milk was bought lah)

Dinner :

Western Food - Grilled fish, choice of Salmon or Cod Fish.

Dish served with cucumbers, lettuces, hashbrowns, tomatoes, and a sunny-side up.

Yummy!!

haha... my family loves bubble tea, and my brother would buy for us to drink.

(Once my dad bought bubble tea back too.. and if you ever see him drink, you would think he is very funny, cute and adorable! hehe..)

My kor kor would accompany my dad to "lim ko pi". (And my dad was so thrilled!)

Just now, I was tired, and decided to lay down on my bed to rest my eyes. I put my spectacles beside me, leaving the lights on.

My brother came into my room, saw me resting, came over to my bed. I thought he was going to "disturb" me. BUT, he took my spectacles, placed it on my table, and off the light.


You have no idea how I felt at that point of time. The care, concern, sensitivity, and love my kor kor has shown towards me - Priceless.


I love you, Kor kor.
You are a blessing from God to this family.


*My sister just came in and asked if I wrote anything about her.
Well, just want to say that honestly, she is the "life" of the family. ALthough she really talk alot, and we often ask her to "shut up", she really brightens up the mood and atmosphere around the house. And all thanks to her, we always get laugh at her funny antics, which she so innocently claim that she didn't mean for it to happen, which I believe.

Things just happen when you are with my sister, whether you like it or not.

=) love you jie jie. You are so cute...

It's all about Jesus.

Recently, I got pretty discouraged, upset, frustrated, and easily agitated.
If I were to go thru one by one those things that happened, you would have probably thought that I needed some "anger management", or felt the same way as me.

But I'm not going to go into details.


What I want to write down, instead, is about the Lord's goodness.

As my frustrations continued to bugged me, one night, I woke up in the middle of the night. Not sure what caused me to wake up, but it might be my brother. (Long story, but ya... I woke up.)

So, I didn't really got back to sleep cos I felt prompted to pray. So, I lie down on my bed, prayin quietly in Tongues.

Suddenly, I felt loneliness, sadness, fear of this life, filling me.

I immediately prayed even harder and stronger.

And I told the Lord what He already knows.
That sometimes I can be really naughty and foolish. That sometimes, I can be really selfish and irritating.

But I told the Lord, that no matter what happens, I pray, that He will be with me. That He will never take away the Holy Spirit away from me.
I asked the Lord to promise me on that. I didn't get any reply from Him. Cos I was too tired and fell asleep while waiting for Him. But I remember waking up the next day, happy and full of peace.


But that's not the end. The other day, when I felt sadness overpowering me again, I was brought to the remembrance of this song:


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IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
IT'S ALL ABOUT THE WAY HE CHANGED OUR LIVES
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD CAN'T BE DENIED
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
IT'S ALL ABOUT THE COVENANT HE MADE
IT'S ALL ABOUT JESUS
VICTORIOUS HE ROSE UP FROM THE GRAVE

WE LIFT OUR HEARTS TO HIM
HE IS THE REASON THAT WE SING
HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH
WE PRAISE YOUR NAME
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As I began to sing this song, I realised that it is indeed not about me! It's about the Lord, whom changed my life, whose power of the blood cannot be denied, whom made His covenant with me, whom rose up victoriously from the grave! Praise the Lord!


Immediately, Joy filled my heart and I felt lifted up. I know, I have to look up to the Lord, and keep renewing and transforming my mind with the Truth. That is what I have to do now. I'm getting better. Less provocative, and happier.. haha.. And I pray the Lord will continue to guide me and teach me His ways.


ANd so, today's daily devotion encouraged my heart further:

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(italics, underlined and (brackets) in mine)

Daily in Your Presence
by Rebecca Barlow Jordan


FATHER OF THE HEAVENLY LIGHTS

Every good and perfect gift is from above,coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. James 1:17


FROM THE FATHER'S HEART (to me)
My child, I am not like a shadow that moves with the rays of the sun. Everything in My presence radiates My light, for I am the Father of the heavenly lights. The sun, moon, and stars reflect My glory. The angels who serve Me daily wear My light on their wings and glow with My presence. And so do you. Look at Me often, and I will reflect My light through you.


A GRATEFUL RESPONSE (from me to the Lord)

In Your entire world there is one light that never changes. With You, Lord, there is no darkness. You are the Father of all heavenly lights. In Your presence the sun need not shine, for You are the brightness of creation. How brilliant is Your light!


SIMPLE TRUTH
The light of the world is still Jesus.


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Another thing that I want to share.. about the below passage.
(Warning: It's a long sharing.. haha... Mostly cos I extracted passages from the various study notes)

(NLT Version) 1 Sam 16:14 - 23

Now the Spirit of the LORD had left Saul, and the LORD sent a tormenting spirit that filled him with depression and fear.
Some of Saul's servants suggested a remedy. "It is clear that a spirit from God is tormenting you," they said. "Let us find a good musician to play the harp for you whenever the tormenting spirit is bothering you. The harp music will quiet you, and you will soon be well again."
"All right," Saul said. "Find me someone who plays well and bring him here."
One of the servants said to Saul, "The son of Jesse is a talented harp player. Not only that; he is brave and strong and has good judgment. He is also a fine-looking young man, and the LORD is with him."
......................... "And whenever the tormenting spirit from God troubled Saul, David would play the harp. Then Saul would feel better, and the tormenting spirit would go away.


When I read this chapter, a few questions ran through my mind.
I didn't understand why the Lord would send an evil spirit to torment Saul, and why Saul got David to play music for him, instead of seeking the Lord first!

And so, I went to look up the study notes and found interesting stuff!


The 1599 Geneva Study Bible

(e) The wicked spirits are at God’s commandment to execute his will against the wicked.


Commentary Critical and Explanatory on the Whole Bible

14-18. The Spirit of the Lord departed from Saul, and an evil spirit from the Lord troubled him--His own gloomy reflections, the consciousness that he had not acted up to the character of an Israelitish king, the loss of his throne, and the extinction of his royal house, made him jealous, irritable, vindictive, and subject to fits of morbid melancholy.


21. David came to Saul--Providence thus prepared David for his destiny, by placing him in a way to become acquainted with the manners of the court, the business of government, and the general state of the kingdom. became his armour-bearer--This choice, as being an expression of the king's partiality, shows how honorable the office was held to be.

23. David took an harp, and played with his hand: so Saul was refreshed, and was well--The ancients believed that music had a mysterious influence in healing mental disorders.


Matthew Henry Complete Commentary on the Whole Bible

Verses 14-23

We have here Saul falling and David rising.

I. Here is Saul made a terror to himself (v. 14): The Spirit of the Lord departed from him. He having forsaken God and his duty, God, in a way of righteous judgment, withdrew from him those assistances of the good Spirit with which he was directed, animated, and encouraged in his government and wars.
He lost all his good qualities.

This was the effect of his rejecting God, and an evidence of his being rejected by Him.

Now God took his mercy from Saul (as it is expressed, 2 Sa. 7:15); for, when the Spirit of the Lord departs from us, all good goes.

When men grieve and quench the Spirit, by wilful sin, he departs, and will not always strive.

The consequence of this was that an evil spirit from God troubled him. Those that drive the good Spirit away from the do of course become prey to the evil spirit.

If God and his grace do not rule us, sin and Satan will have possession of us.

The devil, by the divine permission, troubled and terrified Saul, by means of the corrupt humours of his body and passions of his mind.

He grew fretful, and peevish, and discontented, timorous and suspicious, ever and anon starting and trembling; he was sometimes, says Josephus, as if he had been choked or strangled, and a perfect demoniac by fits.

This made him unfit for business, precipitate in his counsels, the contempt of his enemies, and a burden to all about him.


II. Here is David made a physician to Saul, and by this means brought to court, a physician that helped him against the worst of diseases, when none else could.
David was newly appointed privately to the kingdom. It would be of use to him to go to court and see the world; and here his doing so is brought about for him without any contrivance of his own or his friends.

Note, Those whom God designs for any service His providence shall concur with His grace to prepare and qualify for it.


Saul is distempered; his servants have the honesty and courage to tell him what his distemper is (v. 15), an evil spirit, not by chance but from God and his providence, troubleth thee. Now,

1. The means they all advised him to for his relief was music (v. 16): "Let us have a cunning player on the harp to attend thee.’’ How much better friends had they been to him if they had advised him, since the evil spirit was from the Lord, to give all diligence to make his peace with God by true repentance, to send for Samuel to pray with him and to intercede with God for him! then might he not only have had some present relief, but the good Spirit would have returned to him.

But their project is to make him merry, and so cure him.

Many whose consciences are convinced and startled are for ever ruined by such methods as these, which drown all care of the soul in the delights of sense. Yet Saul’s servants did not amiss to send for music as a help to cheer up the spirits, if they had but withal sent for a prophet to give him good counsel.

And (as bishop Hall observes) it was well they did not send for a witch or diviner, by his enchantments to cast out the evil spirit, which has been the abominably wicked practice of some that have worn the Christian name, who consult the devil in their distresses and make hell their refuge. It will be no less than a miracle of divine grace if those who thus agree with Satan ever break off from him again.


2. One of his servants recommended David to him, as a fit person to be employed in the use of these means, little imagining that he was the man whom Samuel meant when he told Saul of a neighbour of his, better than he, who should have the kingdom, ch. 15:28.

It is a very high character which the servant of Saul’s here gives of David (v. 18), that he was not only fit for his purpose as a comely person and skilful in playing, but a man of courage and conduct, a mighty valiant man, and prudent in all matters, fit to be further preferred, and (which crowned his character) the Lord is with him.

By this it appears that though David, after he was anointed, returned to his country business, and there remained on his head no marks of the oil, so careful was he to keep that secret, yet the workings of the Spirit signified by the oil could not be hid, but made him shine in obscurity, so that all his neighbours observed with wonder the great improvements of his mind on a sudden. David, even in his shepherd’s garb, has become an oracle, a champion, and every thing that is great. His fame reached the court soon, for Saul was inquisitive after such young men, ch. 14:52. When the Spirit of God comes upon a man he will make his face to shine.


3. David is hereupon sent for to court. And it seems,


(2.) Saul became very kind to him (v. 21), loved him greatly, and designed to make him his armour-bearer, and (contrary to the manner of the king, ch. 8:11) asked his father’s leave to keep him in his service (v. 22): Let David, I pray thee, stand before me. And good reason he had to respect him, for he did him a great deal of service with his music, v. 23. Only his instrumental music with his harp is mentioned, but it should seem, by the account Josephus gives, that he added vocal music to it, and sung hymns, probably divine hymns, songs of praise, to his harp.


David’s music was Saul’s physic.

[1.] Music has a natural tendency to compose and exhilarate the mind, when it is disturbed and saddened. Elisha used it for the calming of his spirits, 2 Ki. 3:15. On some it has a greater influence and effect than on others, and, probably, Saul was one of those.

Not that it charmed the evil spirit, but it made his spirit sedate, and allayed those tumults of the animal spirits by which the devil had advantage against him. The beams of the sun (it is the learned Bochart’s comparison) cannot be cut with a sword, quenched with water, or blown out with wind, but, by closing the window-shutters, they may be kept out of the chamber. Music cannot work upon the devil, but it may shut up the passages by which he has access to the mind.


[2.] David’s music was extraordinary, and in mercy to him, that he might gain a reputation at court, as one that had the Lord with him. God made his performances in music more successful, in this case, than those of others would have been. Saul found, even after he had conceived an enmity to David, that no one else could do him the same service (ch. 19:9, 10), which was a great aggravation of his outrage against him.

It is a pity that music, which may be so serviceable to the good temper of the mind, should ever be abused by any to the support of vanity and luxury, and made an occasion of drawing the heart away from God and serious things: if this be to any the effect of it, it drives away the good Spirit, not the evil spirit.




Interesting, isn't it? The things that the Lord already told us in the bible.

Passion

Attended service today and Pastor Mark Conner preached.

He is so gentle, and so sincere in what he preached. Really like this pastor alot.

What he said did struck my heart.

Some of the things that he said that left a deep impression in me:


=> Enthusiasm and Persistence will make an average person superior, Indifference and Lethargy will make a superior person inferior!

How right that is. The attitude and the passion that you have when you do your work is so important. You may be very brilliant at what you do, but the moment you portray lethargicness, indifference, and "heckcareness", it just simplies put ppl off.

On the other hand, when you have a good attitude, have the passion and enthusiasm, it's so easy to get things done, and the process is so much bearable.


=> If we don't guard and fuel our passion/flame for God, it'll die off over time. We are responsible to keep our fire burning for Christ!


=> People are always talking about time management. But what about ENERGY management?

You can have good time management, for example, a doctor reaching in time to a patient's home to examine the patient. What the patient hope, would not only be the doctor's timeliness and promptness. But also the Doctor's energy, and attitude. Is the doctor able to commit fully to the patient at that point of time, with confidence and concentration. Or is the doctor frustrated, annoyed, angry?

Hence, we must be careful. Not to overlook our energy management. Apart from time management, what we gotta keep in check, is also our energy management.



=> We have our Spiritual gauges. We have our physical gauges. But we often neglect our emotional gauges.

I've often heard of people quoting to me that life is like a marathon. Alot of times I agree. Because I felt like at times, I seem to be running and running, out of breath, and never able to complete the race.

However, Pastor Mark Conner has brought new light to my understanding.

Life is not a marathon. It is instead, a series of 100m Sprints.

Why?

Because those who sprints, are always so refreshed, fully commited and concentrated for the race, and after the race, they get to rest and refresh themselves before engaging in another race.

How true!

Even Jesus, whom loves the people and fellowshipped and teached them, needed time alone in God's Presence, to have time to himself to rest and refresh Himself, to pray. (He retreated to the mountain).


Ever notice people who run in marathons are always tired, pale and out of breath?

Regardless whether life is a marathon, or a 100m Sprint. To me, it feels like a race, with a series of sprint races. It is a race, but it will be a race where I will not give up, will keep on burning for Christ, where I will run and rest to refresh myself, I will not grow weary in doing good (the things in His Will), but will guard my heart for Christ, and to press forward for the upward goal In Christ Jesus (Our heavenly calling, call to salvation, call to Heaven).


Life is indeed a race.


1 Cor 9: 24 - 27

Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified.


Heb 12:1-3

Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls.



=> Lukewarmness: Serving God without offending the devil!

What a good explanation! We are, of course, all called to our own area to serve, by the Will of God. But, be it in the market place, or in full time ministry, we all can be passionate about our work. It's not ordinary work, it's work for Christ, work, unto the Lord.

I often thought working in a company is different from serving the Lord. I always thought, how can the 2 combine? But yes, when you are working, you are working for the Lord. Whatever attitude you show, you show it to the Lord. For example, there was once, I was asked to help someone to complete the file conversion. At first, I grumbled and complained. (Me bad gal.. hehe..) But suddenly, I was reminded, that my life, my work at the market place is actually for the Lord. To shine for the Lord, to be faithful, and to grow and mould my character. If I am not faithful in the little things, if I can't even do such a simple and small thing with the Spirit of excellence, faithfulness, and passion, how can God place bigger things in my care, under my stewardship? So ya, even in the most normal work that we have, we can do it in the most extraordinary way, honouring and glorifying God. (Even giving testimonies of God's goodness in our work place! Praise the Lord.)




=> Activation of of Spiritual gifts creates energy and ignite passion.

Indeed! My sister and I prayed together on saturday nite. And as we prayed for each other, I sensed a word for her, and she, a word for me.

Immediately the next day, my sister received confirmation and I in turn, received confirmation on the Word given to me as well!

Praise the Lord! Indeed, with the activation of gifts, (in this case, we prayed, and spoke a word of knowledge and confirmations came), faith and passion increased in us.


- Ever felt frustrated about something? It may lead you to your calling.

If you ever felt frustrated about someone whom does not sing as well, maybe you are called to worship. This frustration is not talking about pride. But more of a burden, a nudge in the heart, that says, "Hey, I should and want to do this for God." Maybe you are close to discovering your calling from there.


=> When you are feeling down and overwhelmed by challenges, what can you do?

Haha.. Humans have a way of magnifying their troubles and challenges. Take for example, there was once, when I was a young christian, I felt so overwhelmed and totally soaked in the challenges of my France trip, that I felt it was impossible for me to go on or do anything else. But as I told sis Cheng that I had so much problems that it is near to impossible for me to solve, she asked me a question that startled me. I had expected her to console me instead of asking me," List out your problems and let me hear."

After listing the 2nd or 3rd problem, I found myself with no more problems to share and to make sis Cheng sympatise with me. Suddenly, I felt that my problems are so small and I had previously magnified them and caused much misery to myself.

So, one of the things u can do when u feel overwhelmed by problems? List them out one by one and attempt to solve them one by one.

Another thing you can do which Pastor said today, which made me laughed hysterically.

That is to list down your trials and tribulations on one side of the paper, and Paul's Trials and tribulations on the other side of the paper. You will realised that, yours is nothing compared to his, and yet, through the things that he went through, he was able to give thanks to God, and count himself priviledged to be in the ministry, and to go through those things for His Name's Sake. Hello? Are we overestimating our own problems? Get your problems checked, seek God's help! We got a God bigger than our problems..


=> What you are tolerant of, you will not change.

Exodus 8:8-10.

Hahaha.. When I heard what Pastor Mark Conner said, I almost fell off my chair.. haha... no lah.. not so exaggerated. But it was a good point made. Pharoah could ask Moses to help him take away the frogs, even immediately. But Pharoah chose "Tomorrow.".

What a choice.




Last but not least, just wanna share an incident that happened just now.

My sis wanted to buy something from Attributes, and I thought, I could queue up for her first, since the queue was so long. And I was just staring into blank space and sinking deep into my thoughts when I heard the music nearby me soften.

I snapped out of my thoughts and saw right in front of me, a very thoughtful security brother. He lowered the volume of the CD player at the Rack, because, 2 young children were trying to hear the music from the CD player ear piece. (Those station where you can hear the CD music, like HMV). With the loud music blasting away, the young children might spoil their ears by increasing the volume of their earpiece.

I was so impacted by his thoughtfulness and sensitivity to his surroundings!

This really teaches me, to be even more sensitive and thoughtful to the needs of other people.



Ok, off I am to study. I even got class tomorrow! whole day somemore! haha..

But ya, Will study hard! hehehe...



Love! =)

Psalms 91

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

This I declare of the LORD: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I am trusting him.

For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from the fatal plague.
He will shield you with his wings.
He will shelter you with his feathers.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.

Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor fear the dangers of the day,
nor dread the plague that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
Though a thousand fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you.

But you will see it with your eyes; you will see how the wicked are punished.
If you make the LORD your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter,
no evil will conquer you; no plague will come near your dwelling.

For he orders his angels to protect you wherever you go.

They will hold you with their hands to keep you from striking your foot on a stone.
You will trample down lions and poisonous snakes; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!

The LORD says, "I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue them and honor them. I will satisfy them with a long life and give them my salvation."

Breakfast of Love

Every morning, without fail, my mom would prepare both my sis's and my breakfast.
(We so blessed, right? hehe...)

Recently, my brother finished his exams and moved back home from his hostel.

So this morning, when I was preparing my stuff for work, I walked past the kitchen and I saw something that stopped me in my tracks.

I saw my brother and my mother in the kitchen!

My brother woke up from his sleep to prepare a sumptous breakfast of love for me and my sis.

I was so amazed! haha... my brother was even so detailed to the fact that he minus the cheese away for my sis's bread, and add in the cheese for me, in my bread.
(Cos my sis dun really like cheese unless it's in pizza and burgers and certain food items. But on the other hand, I love cheese!)

My brother even decorated our breakfast tupperware with lettuce and pieces of bread (that you put in soups).

Did I mentioned that the bread contains egg, Cheese, and HAM?? *yummy....
My gosh, so blessed!


(Not to mention that ever since my brother came back, he tried to help my mom cook delicious food for us to eat and helped to wash all the dishes and pans! This is so important cos you know la, after a day of work, what could be happier than coming home to a sumptous homecooked meal without having to wash the plates? hahaha....)


So, after I happily took my breakfast box, I went downstairs to my dad, whom was waiting to fetch me to the mrt (faithfully, every morning). Haiz.... so blessed!

Even I have to admit, I am not as faithful to them as they are to me, not even as serving and loving.

So yaz, I pray that I be able to love, honour them and serve them, and to take care of them. =)


Just a note la... My sis wants to hold a cooking competition between the 3 of us. But to tell the truth, I will admit defeat before we begin (COs i know surely i wun win one, and I can't be bothered.. hahaha) and my sis can carry on with the competition. And I can tell u, my sis will surely lose lo! Why ah? Cos my sis can only cook maggie mee and those instant stuff (even these, she has problems....).. BUT my kor kor... can cook western food, can marinate chicken and prawns, can invent dishes.... Hello? Tell me la, who will win?
ANyway, I shouldn't "Judge".. or admit defeat before I "fight"... but cooking? eh... spare me!
* I'll learn to cook next time bahz.. when I have a bf.. wahahahaha...

Prayer Meeting

Well, yesterday, I went to the Prayer Meeting. It was really a good time of fellowship with my sister before the PM, and I am happy that I prayed for the church.

Yesterday, as I prayed, I felt the below messages dropped into my heart and mind:


- "As you satisfy the needs of others, I will satisfy yours."
(Meaning, as I satisfy the needs of others, God will satisfy my needs.)


- Even as I was worshipping, singing to the lyrics of the song, indeed, I felt even more strongly, that I want to let Jesus be in total control, Let Jesus have His way in my life (and the church). And what I want, is to go to His secret place.



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My sis bought me a Joyce Meyer book. When I first set my eyes on tat book, I really wanted to buy it.
But after thinkin about my tight budget and many unread books at home, I decided to postpone the purchase.

But my sis, saw that I liked it alot, decided to blessed me with it.
Thank you jie jie. You are always so kind and loving towards me.

In that Joyce Meyer book, "Knowing God intimately", it talks about drawing closer to God, havin a close relationship with Him. That by the Blood of Jesus, the veil that separates us from God has been lifted, and now, we can enter into His full Presence, worshipping Him before His throne, in Spirit and in Truth.

I have barely covered the introduction, haha.. so yup, will write more as I read on...



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I do believe, that this season, is a time where I come back to His secret place, to know Him even more intimately and to dwell in the safety of His Arms.


I pray that, I will become a woman after God's own heart.



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"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it".
-Isa 30:21

This is the assurance that I have from the Lord. That no matter what I do, where I go, His Holy Spirit leads and guides me. He will bring me through my days on earth, and strengthen my heart to endure it, to fufill His Purpose.
Praise the Lord!



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POUR DOWN LIKE WATER
CHRISTIAN CITY CHURCH
Worship

COME HOLY SPIRIT
COME HOLY SPIRIT
COME TO THIS PLACE
COME NOW WITH FIRE WITH GRACE
COME HEAL MY HEART WHERE IT'S BEEN BROKEN
SOFTEN MY HEART
LET ME BE FREE, SO FREE

POUR DOWN LIKE WATER
FLOW THROUGH MY SOUL
COME AND MAKE ME WHOLE



FALL
HILLSONG
Worship

I LOVE TO WORSHIP YOU MY GOD
I LOVE TO WORSHIP YOU MY LORD
AND SEE YOUR SPIRIT FALL IN POWER
YOUR LOVE UNFOLDING GIFTS FROM HEAVEN

I LOVE TO WORSHIP YOU MY GOD
I LOVE TO WORSHIP YOU MY LORD
AND FEEL YOUR PRECIOUS BREATH OF HEAVEN
YOUR ALL CONSUMING LOVE

HOLY SPIRIT COME IN POWER
CHANGE MY HEART I WANT TO LIVE FOR YOU MY GOD
LET YOUR SPIRIT COME IN POWER CHANGE MY LIFE
THAT I MAY LIVE FOR YOU MY LORD

FALL ON US LORD

SO I YEARN FOR YOU
LONG TO SEE YOU MOVE
OH I LIFT MY HANDS
BEFORE MY KING AND PRAY



Have Your Way

THIS YEARNING DEEP WITHIN ME
REACHES OUT TO YOU
YOUR OIL OF JOY FOR MOURNING
SOAKS ME, MAKES ME NEW

AND I WILL GO TO YOUR SECRET PLACE
BOW MY KNEE TO YOUR GLORIOUS THRONE
HAVE YOUR WAY IN MY HEART, O LORD
HAVE YOUR WAY

I NEED YOU HOLY SPIRIT
FIRE TO MY SOUL
CONSUME MY TOTAL BEING
JESUS TAKE CONTROL

Easter

Easter is coming.
2 events happened yesterday that made me link it with the theme of Easter this year.
Wat choices will you make?

The first thing that happened yesterday, was the love of my sis.

Recently, I committed myself into alot of activities, on top of my school. Hence, I got very busy, and tired.

My sis is a very busy person as well. She has her own committments and things to do. Yet, she gave. She gave me her time and energy.
Knowing that I was very tired, she decided to do something practical for me. Drive me home whenever she can after my activities ended.

Take for example, yesterday night, she could have went home and reached home earlier to have a rest. BUT, she chose to wait for me, while waiting for me, spent time praying and in the Lord's Presence, and then drove me home.
Yesterday, when she told me that she was going to wait for me and fetch me home, a thought ran through my mind immediately.

My mind shouted," Hey, I'm not worth your trouble!". In fact, I did conveyed this thought to my sis previously a few times, that I am not worth her time and effort. She can better use the time to do her own things.

But, her commitment and love to me, thought otherwise. To convenient me, and to ease my tiredness.


The second thing that happened? I met a friend.

Well, to be exact, we weren't exactly friends because I didn't really know him, and lateron, I didn't see him again. UNTIL Yesterday.

I saw him and I was pretty happy to see him again after so long. (Well, it was quite long and that I almost forgot about this person. Opps... ) He saw me and was trying to remember who this familiar face was and finally broke out into a smile.

We had a short conversation and he revealed something to me which really shocked me.
In fact, it left me thinking after that. But Still, we can love the person and hate that sin.

You know, in life, the choices that we make, really do either Make us, OR Break us.

You may think it is just another decision. But have you paused to think the extent of impact it would have on the people around you?

Have you paused to think how would that decision affect you in the future?

Is the word, "Consequence" familiar to you?



From these 2 incidents, I have realised some things.

My sister's love towards me has already made me felt unworthy. How much more the overwhelming love of our Heavenly Father?
Yet, By the Blood of Jesus, we need not live in condemnation or guilt. But we can come before Him, boldly and in His Presence, and stand upon His Promises. The Promises that He has given to us.


To my fellow Christians whom are reading this, I want to ask you, Are you living a life that is disciplined and focused, with the Foundation of God's Word in your life? Guard and protect your heart and relationship with the Lord.
Make the decision to draw near to Him.


To anybody whom will read this blog:
So, as Easter draws near, what choice will you make today?
To come, and experience the love of Jesus Christ, or to remain where you are?
So, anybody interested to come to my church for Easter, hahaha... drop me a note bahz... =)

Love.

Breakfast of love

Wah.. me so blessed.. now munching on bread with egg... cos my mummy woke up early to prepare it for me and my jie jie!

My mom was so happy cooking just now cos she simply loves..... the pan... she just bought the new pan and can't wait to cook food for us..
ah... i love my mummy...

Then jie jie, yesterday nite papa took mango for us to eat again! hahaha.. the 2 sides somemore!

hahaha.. so funny la...


Yesterday nite, when I was in school during break time, it was really crowded and people were cramming up the corridors.
I was with my classmates when we tried to walk through the crowds to go back to our class.

But it was really irritating to wait for the crowd to clear and not being able to walk through smoothly.. people were practically blocking and in our way!

So... in frustration, I went, "AIYOHHHH!!!!" At my loud "AIYOH", a few people immediately cleared the way.. and my classmates immediately pulled me away before I could say anything else...
When they were pulling me away, my classmates were all laughing and asked me jokingly not to bully those people...

I was like.... eh... since when did i bully anyone? I wasn't even going to say anything nasty.. hahaha... perhaps just say another loud "EXCUSE ME"...
That would be all lo... hehehe... but ya la.. i was abit rude... but.. honestly, at that kind of situation, it would be good to let ppl know that they are blocking others and not being very considerate...

But ya.. it was funny...


okok.. I came across something interesting and thought, perhaps I can ask u all and see what answer I get.
I mean, it's just a thinking question. Dun be too serious about it...


Scenario: You were travelling alone in a jungle and you stumble upon a tribe. The tribal chief likes you and decided to bring you back to their tents.
At this point of time, they are having their sacrificial ceremonial, where 10 would be killed. ANd being the tribal chief whom likes you, he gives you the choice.
Either you kill one to please him, and the other 9 will live. OR, you refuse to kill and ALL 10 will die (killed by others).


Which choice would you make? Kill one and 9 live, or kill none and all 10 die?
It's not a trick question la.. But the topic I was studying on was about ethics. Thought it be interesting to find out how ppl would choose..
So, tell me wat u think la.... and yes, u only got 2 choices for this case.




By the way, people, please pray for me.. cos both my legs are feeling the strain from dancing and tiredness...
These few days, my knees are having pain... and today, I am having difficulty walking cos there was a sudden lingering pain in the area above my ankle.

Please pray for me! Thanks!




"Greater is God in me than the devil in the world".

Love of a family

Yesterday, I reached home nearing midnight. And my mom happily came out and said she kept the KFC Salad on the table for my supper.
When I saw my dad in the living room, I thought he would be scolding me for returning home at such a late hour.

And as I sat down to eat, my dad disappeared and reappeared with a cup of "tea". (He deliberately kept the name of the tea from me and asked me to taste it first)

Well, probably my dad knew i wun lik the tea, so he just asked me to taste it first. With a mouthful of chicken and vegetable in my mouth, I tried the drink and found that it tasted like orange. But I was suspicious cos normally the drinks that my dad "brew" for me, are not very "normal" and what I deemed as "weird".

So I asked my dad what this drink was. And my dad softly said is.......... Ginger tea...

My first thought was to burst out and say I hate Ginger and do not want to drink.
But instead, I knew my dad brewed the drink with love. So I told my dad that it was nice and very tasty.... (quite true. It actually tasted like orange)


My dad began to brim with satisfaction, saying this tea is good for liver and tiredness... blah blah....
(Though later, I subtlely hinted to my dad that I hate ginger stuff... haha... Cos if I dun tell him... the next thing I know, he might appear with lots of ginger stuff for me to eat. Aiyoh...)


But really felt so loved. Tat my mom was so tired but stayed up just to welcome me home and to tell me that supper was on the table. ANd my dad actually din scold me, but brewed the tea for me cos he knew that I was very tired.


I think one of the most precious love, is the love of our parents. Parents' love are so noble. That they are willing to sacrifice for their children and perhaps even die for them.


As I read the story that Bev forwarded to me (have posted it up, "Thank you for your time"), I think my parents' love and time for me are very valuable. And is one of the best present God ever gave to me.


Thank You, Lord. For blessing me with my family, and being my heavenly Father whom I can depend on for ever.

Seats giving

Was on my way home yest on the train, when something amusing happened.
To start off, as I entered the train, I managed to find a seat and sat down to rest.
(I love to sleep on trains cos can rest mahz... though not much of an image when fell into deep sleep... haha... cos kept nodding head.. oh no... hehe..)


As I was saying, I was seated down when I saw an elderly lady standing quite near me. My train of thoughts are as follow:


"Oh... elderly person.... muz give up seat..."
"But I very tired.... I really want to rest..... "
"Mayb can shut my eyes straight away... "
"Pretend never see la...."
"But hor... what if some one saw me never offer seat to elderly?"
"Heck la... "
"But hor.... What would God think?"


At that thought, somehow, my feet immediately sprang up..... even I was shocked at my reaction at the question of "what would God think?"...
Yes, what would God think of you?
I gave up my seat immediately to the lady.


At the next station, I was rewarded with a seat again... As I sat down happily, glad that I have a seat to rest again... I spotted another elderly man..
I thought to myself... "BU HUI BA?" (Is this really happening?)
Ok lo... I offered my seat to him but he smiled at me and said is ok... he dun wan to sit.. so I sat down, *phew.... and began my rest on the train for the rest of the journey...


Really la.. In whatever we do, let's have an attitude of, "What would God think?".

I want to be a God-fearing woman of God and honor Him in all my ways, with the guidance of the Holy SPirit in every area of my life.
Amen.

Thank you for your time

Thank you Bev, for forwarding this to me.

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To The People In My Life

P.S.: Please read till the end.. :) and have a great day!

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.
It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls,
career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across
the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy
life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to
spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing
could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, "Mr. Belser died last night. The
funeral is Wednesday."

Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly
remembering his childhood days.

"Jack, did you hear me?"

"Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It' s been so long since I thought of
him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago," Jack said.
"Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were
doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of
the fence' as he put it," Mom told him.

"I loved that old house he lived in," Jack said.

"You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make
sure you had a man's influence in your life," she said.

"He's the one who taught me carpentry," he said. "I wouldn't be in this
business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me
things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,"
Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his
hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no
children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to
see the old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack
paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a
leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered.
Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of
furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

"What's wrong, Jack?" his Mom asked.

"The box is gone," he said.

"What box?" Mom asked.

"There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I
must have asked him a thousand times what was inside. All he'd ever tell
me was the thing I value most," Jack said. It was gone. Everything
about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box.
He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

"Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him," Jack said. "I
better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom."

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died. Returning home from
work one day Jack disc overed a note in his mailbox. "Signature required
on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within
the next three days," the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and
looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was
difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention.
"Mr. Harold Belser" it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There
inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read
the note inside. "Upon my death, please forward this box and its
contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life."
A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling
his eyes, Jack carefully unlocked the box.

There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved: "Jack, Thanks for your time! - Harold Belser."

"The thing he valued most...was...my time."

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his office and
cleared his appointments for the next two days. "Why?" Janet, his
assistant asked.

"I need some time to spend with my son," he said. "Oh, by the way,
Janet...thanks for your time!"

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the
moments that take our breath away,"

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would
die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they
don't like you.
4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
5. You mean the world to someone.
6. If not for you, someone may not be living.
7. You are special and unique.
8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you
probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait
on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good can still
come from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a
look; you most likely turned your back on the world.
11. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the
rude
remarks.
13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much
better when they know and you'll both be happy.
14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that
they are great.

If you send this letter to all the people you care about, you will
certainly brighten someone's day and might change their perspective on
life... for the better.

To everyone I sent this: "Thank you for your time."


"Lord make me an instrument of thy peace.
Where there is hatred let me sow love;
Where there is doubt, true faith in you.
Where there is despair, let me bring hope; Where there is darkness, only
light; And where there is sadness, ever joy" - St Francis of Assisi

3 Days Leave!

Exam is coming again..

This time, I took 3 days leave.. to really focus on studying..
*I was trying to clear my stuff like crazy yesterday! Mad rush!

So after this blog entry, off I will be going to study!

Just wanna blog about the summary of the events that happened.

Pastor Ulf came. And on fri service, originally I was sitting on the fence whether or not to go.
Cos I was struggling between going home to study, and to go for the service.

But finally, I decided to go for the service. Cos when I was doing my work, and suddenly nearing the evening, I felt so strong, that I should go and something just drew me... THat I felt like I have to go to the service. It was as if God was askin me to decide between going home (to study) and going into His Presence that nite.

So I made the decision to go and it really set me off thinking by the end of it.
During worship, I was askin God how the prophetic service could be a vision to me, could be integrated into my heart, flowing together with the church?

And I was reminded of the testimonies that I shared in cg, and I felt as if, that the Lord would bless me, that my life would be filled with the works of the Holy Spirit, that people will look into my life, and see that the Lord is indeed God! And through me, get to know who Jesus really is.

And I pray that what I felt is indeed true and that it will come to pass.


On fri nite, I went to read the bible, continuing from where I left off the nite before.
And as I read on, I came to the part on Gifts of Spirit. I recalled, Bro Isa previously said that I could have had the Gifts of Healing. RIght there and then, I wondered: Do I really have the gifts of Healing?

Sat service, Pastor Ulf preached about Gifts of Healing!
Praise the Lord!

My confusion about Healing was cleared right there.
How often Jesus healed the people!
WHen we read how Jesus healed people, we should never read it as something outside of us. But we should be in it. We should be praying for healing too! Cos we are a body of Christ. We are not outside of Christ. He is in us, and us in Him. We must exercise this authority in the Mighty Name of Jesus.

Let us start the lifestyle of Healing.
THe more we pray, the more the annointing.
SO, let's continue to pray for those who are sick.
For the Lord has not given us a Spirit of Fear, But a Spirit of LOVE, POWER and of SOUND MIND!
(CAPS in mine.)


And so it was, I was reading the bible on sat nite, picking up from where I left off again, on fri nite.

Previously was sharing with Laiyin, the burden and discouragement I was facin, about some cg matters.

And there it was, the verse, as if waiting for me, says:

"So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiatically for the Lord, knowing that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless."
- 1 Cor 15:58


This verse really encouraged me alot.


And yesterday nite, I was talking to Jireh. And he taught me about exegesis and eisigesis.

Exegesis - studying the Bible based on its context; considering the background etc...to get the original meaning

Eisigesis - making a personal interpretation of the Bible passage (often based on personal experiences)

He was saying that both are important and should not be seperated from each other.


Hence, upon curiosity, I went to look up the study notes on 1 Cor 15:58. And guess what I found? A whole lot of substance which explained the verse even more.


(Materials from Crosswalk.com)

1 Corinthians 15:58 (John Gill's Exposition of the Bible)


Therefore my beloved brethren…

This is the conclusion of the whole, and contains the use the apostle makes of the above doctrine, addressing the saints at Corinth in the most tender and affectionate manner; owning the spiritual relation they stood in to him, and expressing the great love he had for them, which filled him with a concern for them, that they might be both sound in principle, and right in practice, and continue so:

be ye steadfast, unmoveable;

in all the doctrines of the Gospel, and particularly in this of the resurrection of the dead, which he had been labouring throughout the whole chapter:

always abounding in the work of the Lord;

going on in it, being more and more in the practice of it; either in the work of the ministry, which some of them were in, to which the Lord had called them, and for which he had fitted and qualified them, and in which his glory was greatly concerned, and therefore called his work; or any other work, even all good works, which the Lord commands, requires, calls his people to, and strengthens them to perform: which when they do they may be said to abound, and to be fruitful in every good work: and for their encouragement it is added,

forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord;

the labour of such who were in the ministry was not in vain, but was by the Lord made useful for the conversion of sinners, and the edification of saints, who would be their joy, and crown of rejoicing another day; and which must be no small encouragement to labour; and labour in any kind of good work has here its usefulness: it is profitable unto men, and though not meritorious of eternal life, yet the good works of the saints will follow them; Christ will not forget their work and labour of love which they have shown to his name and people, but will take notice of them as fruits of his own grace, and bestow his rewards upon them, though not in a way of debt, but of grace; which the doctrine of the resurrection assures of, and encourages to hope for; and so must he a friend to the practice of good works, as the contrary doctrine must be an obstruction to them.



Also, another study note that I have found: (Jamieson, Fausset, Brown)

Commentary Critical and Explanatory:


Beloved-- Sound doctrine kindles Christian love.

Steadfast-- not turning aside from the faith of the resurrection of yourselves.

Unmovable-- not turned aside by others (1 Corinthians 15:12, Colossians 1:23).

The work of the Lord-- the promotion of Christ's kingdom (Philippians 2:30).

Not in vain-- as the deniers of the resurrection would make it (1 Corinthians 15:14,17).

In the Lord-- applying to the whole sentence and its several clauses: Ye, as being in the Lord by faith, know that your labor in the Lord (that is, labor according to His will) is not to be without its reward in the Lord (through His merits and according to His gracious appointment).



So, let us not only read the bible, but also study it, combining exegesis and eisigesis together.

Ok, I gotta run off to study.

Keep me in prayers for my studies and exams and family.
Thank you!

Merci et Au Revoir!

Looking up

Was on my way to somewhere once from the office when something just strike me.. haha..

I was walking along the pavement when I saw a round yellow cover on the floor. I was wondering what that was when I looked up and saw the lamppost at the pedestrian crossing left with only a lightbulb at the very top..
So I went OHHHHH.... I see... No wonder... So that cover was for the lamp post at the pedestrian crossing..

I have no idea why it "flew" off but it reminds me of something.

Alot of times, when we look at ourselves, look at the things around us, we go," Why, WHy, Why....???"

But the moment we look up to God, we go," Ohhhhhh... I see....."....

Haha.. Very true, isn't it? At least that is how I always felt...


=)

Testimonies

Have been really busy with work and studies.. Managed to blog now, while watching tv.. hehe...

Just wanna blog about 3 testimonies. 3 Testimonies of God's goodness in my life.

1) Last Friday during the combined cg meeting, Sis Kless prayed for me. She really ministered to me cos what she said was the deep felt feelings in my heart which I din really tell anyone but perhaps mentioned a lil to my sis. So, sis kless couldn't possibly know what I was really feeling unless it was by the POwer of the Holy Spirit that annointed her when she was praying for me.

So, what I was feeling: Recently, over that period of time, I was asking God almost every other day, about my "Specific" purpose in life. I mean, I know what is my purpose in life. But I wan to know it specifically, wan to know that every step I take is in line with God's plan.
And though there ARE some things I went thru that I don't understand, I know God's ways and thoughts are higher than mine and He will piece it up in His time.

Also, recently, I was reading the Book of Acts and Romans and very amazed by the POwer of the Holy Spirit upon Paul. So I was just telling God, I wan to experience the same power of the Holy Spirit, to know God more.


Then WHAT Sis Kless prayed for me:
That God has a "SPECIFIC" purpose for me. Even when I was in my mother's womb, God already has a specific purpose for me. Though I dun understand why I experienced the things I went thru, GOd will REVEAL it to me in the due season and I will experience GOd in a NEW way..

WOW!

Either Sis Kless have some special psychic power, or installed some cameras in my room when I was praying..
(*duh.. of course not!)
But I know she has neither, but is a woman of God, annointed by the Holy SPirit.
Amen.


2) Was bugged by some problems in work. Particularly one was an issue with the supplier which I have to settle. I was really very frustrated and stressed up by it.
The next day, I was still contemplating when I should call the supplier, when he called me.
(The night before, I was chatting with my sis when she shared with me that 10 times she asked God for wisdom in her major projects at work, 10 times she found the wisdom to finish the projects. Even she was amazed. Indeed, Ask and u shall receive!)

So, when I picked up the phone, I asked God for help! Help Help.. Cos I simply had no idea how I was going to open my mouth to settle it.
Surprisingly, I was able to speak sense and managed to talk over with the supplier, and managed to get what I want.
Though the issue is not settled yet, but I was amazed that I actually spoke and asked and took the first step!
THank God!


3) I PASSED my driving test!

Actually lots of things happened.. I was late for my warm-up! cos I miscalculated the time.. I was running lik mad to the driving centre. And guess wat? I actually mounted the curb during the warm-up.. I was so nervous! And cos I was late and lots of cars on the circuit, I only had very lil time practising.. I was really so nervous!

After the warm-up, on my way to the waiting room, I kept meditating on the word that God gave me. (A few days back, I asked God for a word, that will pacify my anxious heart.)

In fact, I never wanted to learn driving in the first place. But one day, I just felt prompted to go and learn. So I just went ahead. I had a rough time completing it cos my progress was slow and I just din lik driving tat much..

So, as I was saying, I was meditating on God's word when I was on my way to the waiting room... *God, who is the source of my hope, will fill my heart with peace and joy, overflowing me with confident hope, through the power of the Holy SPirit. - Rom 15:13

My heart was actually pumping very fast, and I was super nervous on the way up..

The moment I entered the room, suddenly, my nervousness and butterflies in my stomach DISAPPEARED!!!
I just smiled as I entered the room and even *yes, I did... tried to hide my giggle when I saw how nervous the rest are... Really!! I felt so relaxed at that moment and really felt the "confident hope"!! I even encouraged some of the rest in the room to stay calm and to jiayou!

Later, I even asked the tester if I could go to the toilet (and resulted in him waiting for a long time for me...) I was thinking oh no.. hahahaha.... During the test, he seldom took out the board to write. I was thinkin in my heart, either I did so well that he has nothing to write, or I already failed right on the spot...

At the end of the test, the tester turned and asked me:" This is your wat attempt?"

"Eh... my first attempt... " was my reply..

Looking at me, with a surprise look on his face, he said that he was very surprised cos I performed very well for a first timer taking test and normally he only see this kind of standard in repeated takers.

Wow!

See the grace of God?

I was not nervous, in fact even felt His confident hope flowing in me!
The tester even praised me for flaring so well!

Could I do this on my own? I doubt so...

Indeed, as I was going through the whole driving thingy.. I felt very tempted to give up. Cos it's really tough for me. But by the Grace of God, by His Mercy, and because He started this in me, He brought it to a beautiful end and completion.

GOd is good! Amazing, Awesome and Wonderful.


Thank You, God.

Book of Acts.

Wahaha... really nearly laugh cry me when I received Bev's sms.

Guess what she sms me?

"...Did u really meet that guy and does that guy looked like Lee Hom... ?"

wahahaha... *This gal ahz.... hahahaha...
*diaoz....


Anyway, wahaha... really funny sia...

Just a note I couldn't resist putting: (With some of the information from Beverly and Lijun)

- Do you know that Lee Hom's English name is Alexander?
- Do you know that Lee Hom actually know French??? (Wah.. if i really meet him, i can speak to him in broken french... wooohooo...)
- Do you know that Lee Hom is so talented...? He knows drums, flute, piano, guitar, violin, dance blah blah...
- Do you know that................


Wahahaha.. Okok, this is not a blog dedicated to him so I shall stop here...

And NO, I'm NOT loony over him... I just thought he is a talented artist with a very nice voice. His latest song : Hua Tian chuo, I like it very muchy.... (The tune la... Din really go and notice the lyrics... )


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Recently was reading the book of Acts in NLT version... wow.. thank God for the Holy Spirit.

Wow... din know that I missed out so many details in the Book.

For example, I din notice the below "story" until I read the Book again.... (Acts 20)


On the first day of the week, we gathered to observe the Lord's Supper. Paul was preaching; and since he was leaving the next day, he talked until midnight. The upstairs room where we met was lighted with many flickering lamps. As Paul spoke on and on, a young man named Eutychus, sitting on the windowsill, became very drowsy. Finally, he sank into a deep sleep and fell three stories to his death below. Paul went down, bent over him, and took him into his arms. "Don't worry," he said, "he's alive!" Then they all went back upstairs and ate the Lord's Supper together. And Paul continued talking to them until dawn; then he left. Meanwhile, the young man was taken home unhurt, and everyone was greatly relieved.



SO interesting, those things that are written in the bible. =)


I love God, I love Jesus, I love Holy Spirit.

Chinese New Year!

Thank God for such a wonderful Chinese New Year.
I do think it is the best chinese new year ever..

On CNY eve, my brother was helping my mom with the steamboat preparation.
Yeah, our reunion dinner was steamboat at home.

During the dinner, my dad couldn't sit still. He kept walking around. Hahaha... we had to keep asking him to sit down... It was funny.
After dinner, my sis and I helped my mom to clean up the mess we made during steamboat dinner.

Afterwhich, my brother, my sis, and I sat down for a couple of card games... Boy, it was fun, drinking soft drinks, playing games, watching tv. And guess wat? My mom was sitting by our side, cutting the Bak Gua into smaller pieces. So while she was cutting, she was feeding us too...

wah... wat a nite......

The next morning, we awake to fabulous noodle breakfast cooked by my mom. After that, we made our way to our big big aunt's house.

At her house, we had another round of fun games with our relatives..... (Not to mention, collection of.............. ANG BAOS....)

Following that, we went for a ride around Esplanade to look at the streets before hitting home.
(Of course, dinner was settled for Mc DOnalds!)

The next day, (2nd day of chinese new year), my mom cooked for my relatives and it was a good time of talking and playing with our cousins...
After dinner, we head to our small uncle house for dumplings...

Wat can I say? Delicious food cooked by my mom and uncle's wife!!!!

After the whole session, we arrived back at home, tired but still having the energy to clean up the house.

The third day, my mom and dad went out, leavin my bro, sis and myself at home.

After eating the buns that my mom heated up for us before she left home, we decided to play board games.
It was such a fun time together!

Then after, as a family, we headed off for Sakae sushi before returning home to rest.

The next day, I took leave, and stayed at home to study... wooohoooo.... had a small chat with Jireh... and helped my mom to prepare the food that we were going to bring to........................ KTV... yeapz.... my mom, bro, sis and me were going to KTV!

hahaha... so my mom cooked some noodle and snacks and we brought to the KTV to eat... Delicious and totally fun!

Think my bro and sis n myself can organise a band liaoz... my brother sings like Edison Chen (K-ge Zi Wang), My sis sings like Cass Phang, I sing like Coco Lee... hahaha..... wat a combination sia! ( I recorded our singings down... hm... mayb can try uploading.....? hahaha)

The best part? My mom sang Trademark's Only Love... woooohoooo... my mom is so da hip.... hehe...


So so so so so fun.... So fun tat I couldn't bear to step into a new day, leaving those memories behind.
So, I'm writing them down now. So that I can move on, and not forgetting such fun times that the Lord has blessed my family with.

Thank You God!

The Women in Christ's Life: Anna, The Prophetess

The Women in Christ's Life: Anna, The Prophetess
By Kris Swiatocho - The Singles Network Ministries


......I want to share with you about some of the other women who have impacted my life solely because of their relationship with Jesus. I believe as I share, you too will connect with them and discover for yourself how God has always had a plan for you, is working it out in your life and will never leave you.


"Don't you know you're a woman – a young woman? Widowed? This place isn't for you. Go home and darn socks, take care of your family and leave the ministry stuff to us men!"


Have you ever heard these words before? Have you ever felt that your life wasn't as important as others'? You didn't have the right training or knowledge that other people have? Or perhaps you didn't feel as equipped to handle the job? Maybe you were uncertain of your purpose.


I understand because I have been there.

For many years, while running a graphic design business I also volunteered in various single adult ministries. As the years passed, I became more and more involved, to the point that I had to make a decision about going into full-time ministry.

I had some fears and doubts because 1) I was a women 2) I was single 3) I didn't feel adequately educated or equipped. I let my insecurities direct a lot of my choices. I was more concerned with what the world was saying versus God.
God told me to go into full-time ministry. God told me that he would equip me. God told me I was equally valued in his Kingdom. That I had a purpose and a plan. Now I just had to believe him.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you." — Jeremiah 29:11-12



Anna: A Woman With Purpose

Anna, a prophet, was also there in the Temple. She was the daughter of Phanuel, of the tribe of Asher, and was very old. She was a widow, for her husband had died when they had been married only seven years.


She was now eighty-four years old. She never left the Temple but stayed there day and night, worshiping God with fasting and prayer.
She came along just as Simeon was talking with Mary and Joseph, and she began praising God. She talked about Jesus to everyone who had been waiting for the promised King to come and deliver Jerusalem. — Luke 2:36-38


Anna was not like most women of her time. She chose a different path.

More than likely, after her husbands death, Anna would have been encouraged to get married again and have children. Anna, instead, chose to stay single.
She chose to share her faith to as many people as she could.
She chose to serve the Lord.
She chose to fast and pray, worshiping the Lord day and night.
She chose to tell them the news of the Savior that was coming, no matter how long it might be before he came.

She knew her purpose and she didn't let anyone's opinions or comments keep her from it. Anna's choice would not only affect her life in an abundant way, but also the lives of others ever since.


What I've Learned From Anna

I would have love to have been a fly on the wall to watch Anna through her 84 years. How she might have shared her pain of losing her husband, being single, and relying on others financially. To also see her share her joy, hope and security in Jesus Christ.


1. She didn't give up.

There have been times in my ministry that I have wanted to give up. Being on the road can get hard. You miss your friends, your church and your community.
Sometimes churches cancel, leaving you without finances and resources. Sometimes you get lonely, sick and exhausted.

But like Anna, I have also experienced many positives that far outweigh the negatives. I have met so many people who have encouraged me. I have also witnessed many come to Christ and recommit to him. Just think of Anna and how for at least 60 or more years she was able to share her faith with so many people. God's timing is truly perfect. Think about it.

If Christ had come the first day she was widowed, how many people would have never heard the message of salvation. We must never give up.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.— Hebrews 12:1-3



2. She did what God told her to do.

Anna was told by God what to do and she did it. How about you? Has God told you to do something but you are afraid? Lazy? Being disobedient? The blessings of being obedient far outweigh the blessings of staying safe.

Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever.— 1 Peter 4:10-11


3. She taught me about being strong.

Despite her husband's death, she exemplified that even in the worse of circumstances God is with us. She taught me that you can be used by God no matter who you are, what situation you're in – married or single, rich or poor.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me. The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O LORD, endures forever – do not abandon the works of your hands.— Psalm 138:7-9


4. God provided for Anna.

Anna knew from past experience that the Lord answers prayers. Being a widow, Anna, had to rely on others to feed and clothe her. God provided for her. Wow, this means God is going to provide for you.

My steps have held to your paths; my feet have not slipped. I call on you, O God, for you will answer me; give ear to me and hear my prayer.– Psalm 17:5-6


5. Fasting produces results.

Recently I spoke at a church where everyone was doing the "Daniels Fast" ... eating only fruit, vegetables and nuts. Although I sure some were tempted to go off the fast, there seem to be an ease to doing it. Well, as a body of believers, it is always easier to do things together.

However, Anna fasted all alone. What strength she must have had to do this. She truly didn't care what "man" thought, but what God thought. Have you ever tried to fast? I once fasted my TV. I felt it was an addiction so I cut the cord three times, only to re-wire it. Fasting is more difficult than it seems.

Paul and Barnabas appointed elders for them in each church and, with prayer and fasting, committed them to the Lord, in whom they had put their trust.— Acts 14:22


6. She was committed.

Anna was committed to telling everyone about the coming Savior, no matter how long it was going to take.

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us – they help us learn to endure.

And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation. And this expectation will not disappoint us. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.— Romans 5:3-5


7. She had a lot of courage.

I am sure Anna spoke to some people that didn't want to hear. But she kept moving forth, telling about Christ coming. She had courage to do this alone.

Be on guard. Stand true to what you believe. Be courageous. Be strong.— 1 Corinthians 16:13


8. She was a strong witness for Christ.

Anna showed me how important it is to tell others about Christ in all situations. Whether I am at a restaurant, getting my car fixed, at the doctor's or talking to my neighbor.

And now, dear children, continue to live in fellowship with Christ so that when he returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back from him in shame.— 1 John 2:28


9. She listened to God for direction.

Anna didn't let anyone tell her who she was in Christ. She listened to God to tell her who she was and the direction he wanted to send her.

So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!— 2 Corinthians 5:16-17


10. Anna understood what patience meant.

She waited for Christ to come despite the many years that had past. I am not sure I could have waited that long, especially considering there wasn't any retirement fund.

We also pray that you will be strengthened with his glorious power so that you will have all the patience and endurance you need. May you be filled with joy, always thanking the Father, who has enabled you to share the inheritance that belongs to God's holy people, who live in the light.— Colossians 1:11-12